They say THE GOOD die young.

I never said it would be easy,

I only said it would be WORTH IT.

Til this day I still can't believe that she's gone. Janelle has inspired me in so many ways possible & she was one the most greatest examples out there. If there was ever a time I needed a laugh or some kind of comfort, Janelle was ALWAYS there. & that is the one thing that I will truly miss about her. No matter what the problem or trouble was, or how hard or easy it was, or how expensive or cheap it was, her response was alway's, "It's no problem." :)

For the past 3 & a half yrs that I've known Nelle, not only was she a sister to my husband & I, but she was also a Mother. Speaking of Mother, lol! I remember the first time I met Nelle. :) it was my first time meeting Siah's family & oh how NERVOUS I was. Haha! Siah had left his house to meet up with me. & being "Siah", of course he didn't tell anyone that he was leaving. So, he meets up with me & takes me back to his house. I walk upstairs & Siah says, "Everybody! This is Lola." So he goes around the room introducing me to everyone, & Nelle cuts him off & says, "WHERE THE HECK DID YOU GO!?" Like whoa! Can I at least get a "HI" first before you start yelling at him? Lol! It was from then that I realized not only do I have to deal with impressing his mom, but I have to deal with impressing his sister, Janelle aka second "MOM" as well. :) lol!

Nelle has been like a Mother to every single one of her siblings. Especially Jaz. Where ever Nelle was, you could always find Jaz. The way these 2 acted amongst each other just made me wish I had a sister even  more. They were pretty much inseperable. It was ALWAYS Nelle, Ron & Jazmyn. Everywhere

Nelle & Ron went, Jazmyn would be right along side them. Everytime we would have family get togethers, these 3 were the main people I stayed away from. Haha! You wouldn't ever wanna be left alone with these 3 clowns! All they would do is just clown on you until you leave their sight. Yeah, NOT COOL! lol!

This past year was the MOST I've ever spent with Nelle. Whether it was just sitting at home bored out of our minds, painting our nails, clowing on each other, playing ball, ("PLAYING BALL") lol, eating out, or just about anything. This past year was THE MOST time I've ever spent with her. It was mainly Nelle & Ron who was always getting the family together to hang out. There was NEVER a boring time with these 2. Nelle & Ron were most definitely THE LIFE at the party. If it wasn't Nelle, it was Ron. If it wasn't Ron, it was Nelle, well, SOMETIMES. She gets all her jokes from Ron so all of her jokes were already played out. Hahaha! JK! Words cannot express how much I miss this girl! There is not a day that goes by where I don't think of her. I know that with the Plan of Salvation that the Lord has blessed us with, that we WILL see Nelle again. I know that she is in Heaven looking down & smiling at each & everyone of us. Although she's gone, but she will FOREVER be in my heart.

I love you Nelle! I promise that I won't let Ariez, Jordyn & Jaelah grow up without knowing how much of a loving aunty you were to each of them. I will make sure that they remember every little piece of you & love you for the kind of aunt you were. I know that you will always be with them not only in spirit, but in their hearts. They will FOREVER carry their Aunty Janelle in their hearts in whatever they do. I PROMISE!

God saw that you were in pain when a cure was not to be,

So he quickly wrapped his arms around you and whispered, "COME TO ME."

With tearful eyes we watched you, and watched you slip away,

Although we love you dearly, we could not make you stay.

A golden heart stopped beating, hard working hands at rest,

God broke our hearts to prove to us,

HE ONLY TAKES THE BEST.



He only takes the BEST ♥

I always hear the saying, "LIVE EVERYDAY AS IF ITS YOUR LAST". Etta was one of the many people I know who lived EVERYDAY as if it were her LAST. On June 23rd, 2011, Etta was called back to Heavenly home. Leaving behind endless memories, a heartbroken family, and a BEAUTIFUL daughter. Etta moved to Utah in 2010 to make a change, not only for her life, but for Alohilani (her daughter) as well. I'm glad she made that choice to move to Utah, for if she hadn't, I would've never gotten the chance to meet this BEAUTIFUL woman. I've gotten to know Etta in the spring of 2010 when she was planning on going to Everest College to major in the medical field. But, we all know how that goes, right? LOL! Etta was a friend I had to put on my "CRAZY" list. She wasn't afraid to speak her mind, and she wasn't afraid to do whatever the heck she wanted to do. LOL! From the time I met her until the time she left back to Maui was too UNREAL. Haha! She had an outgoing personality and an amazing way of presenting herself in front of others. Every person Etta came in contact with was ALWAYS her friend. She could be talking to someone that she just BARELY met that day and when you ask her, "whose that?", she'll say, "oh, my friend.", when she doesn't even know their name. LOL! All she talked about was her daughter and how much she wanted to change her lifestyle around just for her. She wasn't perfect, and she wasn't striving to be, she just wanted to be what every mother would want themselves to be for their child. She moved back to Maui in the fall of 2010. I didn't find out she left until I wrote her on FB and asked what her plans were for the night, her reply? "Hello! I'm back in Maui!!". LOL! Yeah, HECKA MODED! We wrote each other here and there on FB, and that was pretty much it. I got a call from my sister in law early Friday morning, about a couple hours Etta had passed. After ignoring her first phone call I thought, "okay? Somethings up!". Why the heck would she be calling me when she knows its 2:30 in the fricken morning. I called her back to see what the problem was and the first thing out of her mouth was, "WHAT HAPPENED TO ETTA?!!".. My heart dropped just by the way she said it. After hanging up the phone with her I made a couple phone calls to some of my family. Everyone in my family knew Etta. When she lived here in Utah she stayed with my cousin and his wife. So because of that, she was pretty much part of our family as well. I couldn't get a hold of any of them at the time.. Of course! It's 2:30 in the morning! Who would wanna answer your phone call!! LOL! So, I decided to hop on FB. After logging in I jumped right into Etta's profile and the first post I saw on her wall was, "RIP ETTA! WERE GONNA MISS YOU!". I felt like my heart stopped beating for a minute. My hands started shaking, I took a deep breath in and balled! :'( i was too much in shock. My heart broke just thinking about Alohi. For the short period of time I knew Etta, I felt like I knew her my whole entire life at that moment. All I could do was sit there and reminisce about all the memories I shared with her here in Utah, and CRY! I couldn't sleep at all that night. I stayed up till I had to go to work. It was so hard to concentrate that day. The only people on my mind was Etta and Alohi. I sat at my little cubical trying to hold back the tears. It was like that the whole day. Alohi turned 4 on July 25th.. 2 days after Etta had passed. :( My heart ached for her on that day, knowing that her mother couldn't be there to help celebrate with Alohi on her special day. But we all knew she was there that day. So did Alohi. :) if you ask Alohi now where her mommy is, she'll say, "MOMMY'S WITH JESUS". She knows her mommy is in Heaven, which puts everyone's heart at ease. It did for me. :) I've never gotten the chance to say goodbye to you or to even tell you how much I appreciate you and everything you've done for me while you were here in Utah. THANK YOU ETTA FOR EVERYTHING. For being there to discuss my problems with, when I needed a shoulder to lean on, when I needed someone to text because I was soooo BORED, and when I needed someone to buy me food. LMBO! I just needed to switch it up a little because I was getting a little teary eyed. :'( I miss you Etta, so much! 

RIP ETTA HELENA VAKAUTA.

.FOREVER AND EVER IN MY HEART.

Though death separates us for now, I know we'll meet again.
My tears will dry, no more I'll cry, and a new life will begin.
It's hard to have to let you go, and I still don't understand.
It's so hard when memories start to flow,
of all the good times that we had planned.
Someday's I sit upon the couch, and your memory lingers on,
I hear you laugh, I see your face, and its here where you belong.
But then I stop and ask myself, "Would it be best for you?",
It's not right to wish you back on earth,
when I know what you went through.
Our Heavenly Father is such a Gracious man, and he gives us each so much,
he left me keep your memory near, so we'd always be in touch.
Be free, My love, I'll let you go, your life was not in vain,
You touched so many lives on earth,
through your laugh and through your pain.
I'll live my life as God has planned, I'll hold my head up high,
I'll treasure all the times we had, and with that, I'll say "good-bye".
Onward the flow, I'm letting you go,
Because I know, we'll meet again.

COUNTING MY BLESSINGS ♥

I can honestly say that being a MOTHER is one of the most GREATEST blessings of all. I was only 16 when I found out that i was pregnant with my first. Oh the thoughts that were running through my head at that time.. What am I gonna do? How am I gonna do it? What will everyone think? And so on and so forth. To tell you the truth, coming from what I have experienced, age can NEVER define how great of a parent you can be. It didn't matter what everyone thought at the time or what I was gonna do or how I was gonna do it, all that mattered was what I was carrying inside of me. I was so anxious and excited to meet my little angel. I did everything and anything to make that 9th month come sooner. And it did. On September 7th 2008 at exactly 4:00 am, I was blessed with a healthy 7lb, 9oz, 19 inches long baby boy.  It was the most greatest feeling ever. Knowing that time has come where I can FINALLY meet the man of dreams, my son ARIEZ IOELU TOILOLO DAVIDSON. I didn't know how much love my heart could hold until I saw my little bundle of joy. My life as a mother began. :) the thought of having more kids didn't really cross my mind. Ariez was only 4 months old when I found out I was pregnant again. The anxiously waiting period started all over again. I couldn't wait to find out what it was or what was I gonna name her/him. After 5 months of assuming it was a boy, the doctor surprised us by saying, "NOPE! Its a GIRL!!" My thoughts after finding out it was girl? Well, growing up I was known as the "problem child " .. I remember my mom always saying, " the way you are now, your kids are gonna turn out 10x worse! ". My moms voice just kept replaying in my head over and over again. I let go of that whole "anxiously waiting" period and told myself, "Ahhh! YOU CAN WAIT!!" Lol! But, that only lasted for a couple of weeks and I was back at telling myself, "OMG! I can't wait!" :) on September 7th 2009 at 9:02 am, Jordyn Sioualofa Davidson entered our lives weighing in at 6lbs, 3ozes and 20 1/2 inches long. After giving birth to her, I looked at my husband, smiled, and said "Here's number 2!!" Lol! After Jordyn was born we told ourselves, "ok! NO MORE!". (wink, wink). I was good with the 2 that I already had and being pregnant for 2 years straight I felt like I needed a break. But unfortunately my so called "break" only lasted for a little while. Ariez was only 1 at the time and Jordyn was about 6 months old when I found out I was pregnant, AGAIN! Lol! And to be honest, I wasn't so excited when I saw that positive sign. My thoughts from when I found out I was pregnant with my first just came rushing through my head again. I really didn't know what I was gonna do, how I was gonna do it and at that point it really did matter what everyone else was thinking. It stayed that way FOREVER. It got to the point where I actually thought about giving it up for adoption. But I'm not gonna break that whole "adoption" part into details because every time I think about it, it just makes me wanna cry. Till this day I still can't believe that I even thought about adoption. This was our choice, and regardless of what the situation was we would have to take responsibility for it. And I'm glad we did. On December 15th 2010 we were blessed with a beautiful angel, Jaelah Niupele Davidson. She was born at 8:56 am and she weighed in at 7lbs, 1oz and was 21 1/2 inches long. I couldn't help but cry when I saw her face. Looking at her just made everything I was going through in that 9 month period WORTH IT! Jaelah is now the baby of our family and will probably still be "the baby" for a while. She is just entering her 6th month and she is the most happiest baby on the face of this earth. She goes to sleep with a smile on her face and wakes up with the exact same smile every morning. Whenever I'm having a bad day all I have to do is look at my little chubby love and she'll turn my day around just by her smile. Ariez is now 2 but will be turning 3 in just a couple of months. I can honestly say that Ariez is just too smart for his age. I feel so stupid sometimes cause this little guy has his ways of outsmarting me. Lol! But I guess that's a good sign for the future. And last but NEVER the least, JORDYN!! Well, well, well.. Jordyn is now 1 but she will be turning 2 in September. She is one heck of a handful. It always has to be JORDYNs way, and if Jordyn doesn't get what she wants, then we won't get what we want.... Some peace and quiet. Lol! Blame her dad for that. She is most definitely a daddy's girl. If she doesn't have her way with mommy, she'll ALWAYS have her way with daddy. UGHH! Lol! But, I can't help it. She does the most weirdest things at such random times. She's our little goof-ball. :) words cannot express how thankful I am for being their mother. I would do anything for my kids. They are my life, my heart and my everything. I try my best to be the mother they need and want me to be. I'm truly blessed to have them in my life and can never picture my life without them. They mean the world to me and more. They make the impossible, possible and I wouldn't trade them for the world. Counting my blessings and counting them twice. Mommy loves you Ariez, Jordyn and Jaelah! 

HOWDY..

Well, here it is, my very own "blog". I never really had any interests in this whole "blog-spot" thingy-ma-jig, but after reading through everyone and anyone's blog I just HAD to make me one. And since I have so much things to talk about I thought, "why not?". So here I go...... :)